Blurt It Out!!

It’s over. ICAEW exams is officially OVER!!
No more examsssss

Yeah, I pass my final paper. Extra marks skit je dr passing marks.. hahah. Asal passs

Alhamdulillah.

Thank you Allah
Thanks people for the prayers

1. Out of love
It’s a heart break for me when someone close had her/his heart broken and worse, separated.
It’s sad to see them being out of love when they used to be in love.
I don’t really know how to act. Yes, I can lend my ears and shoulders but.. I don’t think it’s enough.
I know deep down they are really hurting
It will take a long time for the heart to heal
But the truth, there’s nothing I or anyone can do other than just be there
Only they themselves can mend the broken heart.
I am so scared of being out of love. Scared of him losing interest in me or vice versa.
I know nothing is forever but we all wish for a long lasting love, right?
I can only pray and hope my marriage and love stay strong forever.

2. In love
Another note, it’s wedding season (again!)
I feel so happy going to wedding
Cos the bride and groom look like they own the world and full of love
Ahh.. love.. a precious gift Allah gives us
So, starting last week, I have wedding invitation every weekend until January!
Last week it’s Moon’s. Congratulations Moonie. I hope you will feel the happiness of the marriage life. And I wish you a long lasting love and marriage.
And this weekend I have 3 invitations, not so sure if can attend all of them.

Baru hantar hubby kat KTM tadik. Sungguh tidak suka keadaan ini. Setiap Ahad, kalo aku ke Penang, ahad kena balik KL.
Kalo hubby yg dtg, Isnin dia kena balik Penang.
Bila la boleh dok dekat
Bercinta jauh, berkahwin pon jauh.
Hmmm
Anyway, weekend ni dlm usaha utk berjimat cermat, aku telah memasak sepanjang weekend. Hhehehe
Jumaat – dinner : Ikan siakap masam manis, sayur, udang goreng tepung
Sabtu – lunch: Moon’s wedding
- Dinner: Remis masak serai+halia, ikan goreng, sayur
Ahad – lunch : Mr Teppanyaki
- Dinner: Tom yam, ikan goreng, nuggets n sayur

Berjaya masak kali nih.. hehehe. Lagipon aku lagi suka makan masakan umah dr kuar, ntah, rasa lg best wpon kadang2 masak tu xde best sangat.. hahaha.
Semalam try buat cream puff. Ok, x tau kata dia akan ‘membesar’ dr original size so agak besar laa cream puff tuh.. hehe. Then masukkan custard as filling tapi piping yg aku beli tu murah sgt, low quality so bila tolak masuk, dia tolak ke atas.. hampeh tul. So end up custard kuar n tak masuk dlm cream puff.
Tapi aku rasa lepas ni buat kek biasa je kot, cam remeh jugak nk buat cream puff nih cos kena masukkan filling etc. Kalo buat kek, sekali prepare n bake, dah siap.
This weekend maybe x dpt jumpa hubby cos dia kena keje weekend nih 
But my family is coming to attend my uncle wedding so hopefully I’ll be okay. Selalu bila x ley jumpa, aku mcm stress gilee…. Huhuhu
This Friday result is coming out. I am praying hard that I’ll pass. Very very scared.
Please pray that I’ll pass, ok people. Want to get out from all this misery.

I’m not sure why lately I’ve been having headache and dizziness. I don’t think I’m pregnant, my monthly cuti is on time.

Or is it because I’ve reached the limit? My mind and body could no longer take auditing.

Or maybe tiredness due to constant travelling between Penang and KL?

And I have yet gone for check up.. yeah, work is holding me back.

Or maybe it’s because my low blood pressure?I used to have that.

Note to self:Buy 100Plus

Anyway,

I went to see Midah and her new baby last Monday night! Coincidentally my current client is near the hospital thus I take the chance to be among the first to see her and the baby.

Okay, the baby of course, cute! Is there any ugly baby? Well, Benjamin Button ain’t too cute when he’s born.. huhuh

But what amaze me was, how fortunate she is, she get easy delivery. There’s no long hours contraction and she don’t even use epidural!

Wow, really really amazing. I think I’m going to need all the epidural there is at the hospital! Hahhaha.

Anyway, Midah and her baby is doing well. She didn’t look so tired as I thought.

Congrats Midah!!

I still can’t believe how time flies.. my close friends is having their own family!! Wow!

And I’m turning 27 next year. Time really flies huh

I am blessed because:

- I have a great man as a lover, a husband and a bestfriend.

- I have great family who always support, no matter what

- I have great in-laws, that showered me their love and cares like I am truly their daughter

- I have friends, who always there, in all kind of situation

- I have a job, which provide me income so that I don’t have to depend on other people

- I have a house, which provide me security

- I have Allah, and HE always there, answering my prayer, easing my burden

I am blessed, Alhamdulillah

It’s unique how Allah arrange ur life partner, isn’t it?

My 30+ yrs old uncle is getting married this December. He have been searching high and low for the right lady. He broke few hearts, and have his heart broken too before he found her.

They are university friends but only met recently. After 3 months dating, they decided to get married.

He quit his job in Jeddah, settling down now. I guess his dream to further his study in UK will be on hold.

I’m happy that he now found the lady of his dream BUT

Its hard to let him go

Its hard sharing him with outsiders

Its hard not being able to call him for sudden dinner or movie

I miss hanging out with him

It takes time for heart to heal that now he have someone, he’s not free like he used to

I wish him well. I wish the marriage will last long. I wish him happiness.

November

 -         4^th – took my last paper which I hope I will pass. I want to complete my ICAEW pleaseeeee

-         5^th – went for a job interview. A disaster! The essay is all abt technical questions and so is the interview session. I am sooo humiliated! Yes, an auditor with 3 years experience should know the answers actually but I just donno, I’m not prepared at all as I expected it to be just like other interview, “Background, why want the job yada yada”

-         Suddenly after the interview I felt so sad and low. Called up my aunty and friends, all are bz. Feel so alone. Called him, and decided then I’m going back to Penang. Need someone who care no matter what

-         Monday – back to office after a month of study break. Thankfully I have training this whole week thus I’m not immediately on the job, scared my body and mind got ‘shock’ with suddenly have to work hard… hahahah

-         Some of my friends which have gotten married said that a married man/woman is a poor man/woman. It is soooo true

-         There’s a lot of things to buy, washing machine, TV (mine rosak last week), fan, cupboards, bed, sofa etc etc

-         Plus, hubby don’t like paying those monthly instalment things, he don’t like being on credit so one month one item, there goes our salary

-         Meet my ex-college mate today at lunch time, he said I look a bit berisi.. and I immediately blame it on marriage and of course, the favourite question pop up.

-         For now, when the question pop out, I answered “ Uishh… hate that Q. Blum lagi”

-         Does the statement hurt people? But that Q hurt me a lot more

-         And its further annoying when people I hardly know asked me whether I’m on pill etc

-         Please!!! I hate to disclose my whole life publicly

Feel like stick a note on my head saying “I’m not preggie, no further Q plssss, better still don’t mention abt this at all!!!”

Saya sungguh tidak suka berjumpa dengan orang ramai sekarang.

Kenapa?

Sebab mereka akan bertanya, “dah berisi belum?”

Arghhhhh sungguh sungguh tidak suka soklan itu

Blum sebab saya merancang.

Keadaan yang berjauhan antara saya dan suami, ditambah dengan pekerjaan saya yang teruk itu, saya belum merancang utk mendapat anak.

Tolonglah jangan bertanya.. tak suka ok.

Ada rezeki, saya umum besar besaran okayyyyy

Counting days to Raya =D

This year will be different, I’m celebrating it with my husband for the first time. And my in-laws =D

Since we started dating years ago, my husband and I always slip in duit raya in the card. Usually it will be either 2 or 5 ringgit cos we will sign on it. Usually my duit raya have lots of heart on it.. Hhehehe

However, since last year, both of us is so busy that we didn’t see each other any card. But I still got duit raya, a much better amount with no signs

This year I can kiss his hand asking for forgiveness! Can’t wait =D

I wish I have a lot of leave so that I can go back a bit earlier, maybe baking cakes and cookies. However, due to my final paper, I have used up all my leave, even have to take unpaid leave!! Huhuhu

Anyway, I took a week off for this raya but have to come back to KL either Thursday or Friday cos I have mock exam on Saturday, so cannot really enjoy myself actually, have to do bit of studying.

Oh yeah, as for baju raya, actually we planned to wear green, being one of the hantaran gifts but my dear hubby delay in sending the clothes to the tailor thus we have to wear purple (its our baju kahwin). So yours truly have to find a purple baju kurung!! And the nice ones is very very expensive, RM400++!! Erk, I should have learn sewing!!
Luckily my mother have a contact so her friend still take last minute order. Hopefully it will turn out nice!!

Oh yeah, my parents will hosts an open house on the 2nd hari raya so if u happen to be in Jitra, do come by!

3rd raya we will be off to Penang

Selamat Hari Raya everybody. Maaf zahir batin

As I watched the cleaner lady vacuum nearby, I saw myself. I used to do that.
Back when I was a uni student at UK, I worked part time as a cleaner so that I have enough money to tour Europe.

I have vacuumed people houses, offices, even hospital!
I remember back then when I vacuumed the office, I secretly hope and wish that one day I can work at an office like that. Office with cubicles, looking real busy and important.

I guess I got my wish.

And it hit me again how back then when I was a cleaner; life is much easier and simpler.

To gain something, have to forego something else. It’s the rules of life.