Blurt It Out!!

I downloaded drop box to back up my photos. I’ve had dropbox account for years but rarely use it. So when i login, i found some old photos that i saved there.

One of them is my photo and video with danish just before his operation when he was 2 years old.

I remembered the moment. Though it was a minor operation, there’s so many what if in our mind.

I forwarded the photo and video to my husband. He replied saying, maybe Allah intended for us to only have one kid. And he is special.

I cried reading that because Danish is just so special. 

 I remembered how i cried when i knew i was pregnant. It wasn’t a happy tears. I cried because i realised then that the baby will affect my career. I have to settle down and not chasing the corporate ladder. 

Now i felt so grateful that at least i have one child. That even at that time i was uncertain whether im ready to be a mother, Allah knows. And HE is the best planner.

My dear Danish, you are a wonderful gift to us. May you grow to be a kind wonderful man and successful in everything you do. 

There’s no regret in leaving my career and choose to be with you.